I'm a naturally optimistic person, but I am growing so aggravated with the world and it's inhabitants.
a bunch of careless human beings who do nothing but hurt one another to selfishly profit.
we ruin the earth that has done nothing but give, and we demand more. we ruin each other, step on people to get ahead in a rat race built on lies and more deceit, we isolate anyone we consider different and harm them, and we put lives of others second to things that make profit. we destroy with war and don't stop to think what we're doing. we throw people into mass graves and don't stop to glance into their eyes to try and see what last thought or feeling was frozen on their faces.

sometimes at night I lie awake and cry when I think about all of the pain in the world, and how no matter how hard I try, I can never help everyone I want to.
other times I want to kneel down in a forest and touch the earth and tell it I'm sorry. I'm sorry for what humans have done to it. I'm sorry that we raped it of it's gifts and got angry when it couldn't give any more. I'm sorry that we destroy it for selfish reasons.

people push love and genuine feelings away and then preach about how others should live and let love in. people kill then act like they value life. people walk past someone who's hurt then say that they care. people cheat on someone who would do anything for them then expect life to reward them.

I am sick.
I want to vanish from this corruption.
if there's anybody left who isn't a disingenuous self centered moron, I'd like to meet them.