I have come to terms with the fact that my parents are separated, but I don't think they consider how it inconveniences me.

I know it's not my relationship, but I'm still in the mix. I have spent so much time at home this summer because I go back and forth between two houses, and if I'm with my dad, I can't visit anybody. all of my friends are near my mom's.

I also lose all of my books and movies, not knowing which house I left them at last.

My mom also thinks it's okay to tell me how badly she wants a man in her life, meanwhile my dad always tells me that he hates being alone and he just wants someone to care about him.

When I use my mom's computer, I always stumble upon her dating profiles, and mens' facebook and myspace pages who she meets through them. She always lies and says she'd never date someone seriously because it'd hurt my dad, but she's doing it in secret, which I think is worse.

I hate that she uses my longing to find my soul mate as a means to relate to me. I'm very close with my father, and she's done something awful to hurt him that he's still unaware of. I wish I didn't even know. She asked him to move out. He's been miserable on-and-off since.

I hate seeing people I love hurt so bad, especially my father, who still goes back to her house to fix things and move furniture for her. He shouldn't feel obligated to anymore, but I guess loving someone makes you stupid, even when they don't appreciate what you do for them anymore.

I want both of them to be happy, but it's hard for me to know that my mom is looking for someone else secretively while my dad is hoping that they'll work things out in the future.

It's not fun living out of a duffel bag and planning my life around which house I'll happen to be at on a given day. especially when I have work, I have to be at my dad's, since my mom won't drive me to the city.

I get nothing done because I'm constantly going back and forth.
I had so many plans for this summer.
and somehow, not finishing them doesn't seem to be what bothers me most.
it's the fact that my parents are both unhappy no matter what, and they think that I'm going to be this rock that won't be affected by what's going on with them.

I normally don't like to post things about my personal life on the internet, but I need to vent, and I have too many people who claim to be my friends that will vent to me then give me the cold shoulder when I need some help.
I also know barely anyone reads this, so I guess it's a safe place to release some negative energy.