trial & error

It's been my understanding that I see the world very differently from many people around me.

I haven't walked this earth for too long in this lifetime, but I'm very conscious of the fact that I've been here before. I'm also conscious of things that people forget.

I think people need to understand that life itself is one big learning experience.
it's okay to mess up. it's okay to change your mind.
a mid-life crisis, in my opinion, is nothing more than a re-evaluation of your progress so far.
tack the words mid-life and crisis together, it really does sound catastrophic. but why describe it that way? we're still learning.

life moves quickly, and if you expect yourself to perfect it by the end then you're going to be very disappointed.
you can be imperfect and still be thrilled with the outcome.
we all are imperfect and perfect in our own unique ways.
we find these ways out through trial and error.
the life process is trial and error.

each direction we move in is a risk. at any moment the sky can open up, lighting can strike down and hit the exact spot you're about to step in. does it happen often? no. but do we realize, at least subconsciously, that there's a risk there? yes.

every new endeavor is not a guaranteed success.
we're allowed to make mistakes.
society has made it seem so that every time we change our mind, we're committing some social crime.
we're made to think that realizing something we didn't see before is a contradiction.
why learning and admitting it is so shunned, I'll never really understand.

through my own experience, I've been yelled at for questioning different schools I've been in.
my mother was angry that I wanted to switch majors, switch schools, etc.

but why is that so bad?
was I honestly to know what was in store for me? no way. not until I experienced it.
but we're just conditioned to think that we only have so much time to figure out everything. while that's true, it doesn't mean we should rush through life and simply go through the 'acceptable' motions.

we need to experience different things.
we need trial and error.
we need to fulfill that part of us that gets neglected when we only concern ourselves with rushing to figure everything out.